if only

If only the message didn't come in. I could have eased a little and urged a smile. But it did. And it made all the difference.

If only the issue could have been dropped. No more probing further, but you teased me on that, reminded me on things I want to forget. And you did just that.

I guess you asked for it. It might take awhile for me to accept you for whatever you are, but I don't think I could look at you and pretend that nothing ever happened because it did. It sure as hell did.