friend in bleed

I sometimes wonder how friends can eventually drift apart and silently loathe each other. Because I've been in one too many situations that I just don't know what or who to blame.

Circumstances are most likely the culprit. But I think we allow the awkwardness to swamp us, leaving us cold and silent.

I did what I had to. Although it's not always my fault. But I'm done, because the other party never seems to think that they're wrong, that they are always right. Even if they're not. Sometimes, saying sorry should not be the hardest thing.

I guess people forget that being selfish and highly egoistical just add on to the scar. Because a conscience, a genuine conscience is all it takes to close the void.

But you know what's worse? The fact that we still see each other and fake that friendly smile and hugs, like it's something that we can't avoid.

And in the end, we still call ourselves friends. Pathetic, much?

thank you

I think I might need to start a thankful / grateful note every single day to remind myself how (truly) blessed I am. (Truly x - inspired!) And that life is too short to sow hatred and wasting time regretting (and worrying!)

hope

"Hope is a thing with feathers,
that perches in the soul"

I am suddenly feeling very Dickinson-ish. Have to keep reminding myself to keep on hoping and praying.

Just don't hope too much, maybe?

when you greet

I received this forwarded email from my brother-in-law. Have a read.

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SIAPA YANG MENGGUNAKAN PERKATAAN "SALAM"? Apakah maksud disebaliknya??

Maka berpalinglah (hai Muhammad) dari mereka dan katakanlah: "Salam (selamat tinggal)".
Kelak mereka akan mengetahui (nasib mereka yang buruk). (QS. 43:89)

baik gunakan… ASSALAMUALAIKUM or ASSALAMUALAIKUM WARAHMATULLAHIWABARAKATUH...

Ilmu utk dikongsi bersama. Sekadar peringatan untuk semua rakan-rakan muslim yang lain.

Pagi semalam saya dengar radio ikim (91.50 fm). Ustaz Zawawi ada cerita tentang sunnah Rasulallah s.a.w. Antara yang dibincangkannya ialah tentang bab cara memberi salam.

Menurut ustaz Zawawi Yusof, Baginda SAW memberi salam dengan lafaz “Assalamualaikum” dan menjawab salam dari para sahabat baginda dengan salam yang lengkap iaitu “Waalaikumussalam warahmatulallahhi wabarakatuh”
Ringkasnya, baginda SAW akan ; Beri salam dengan ucapan - “Assalamualaikum” dan… Jawab salam - “Waalaikumussalam warahmatulallahi wabarakatuh”

Lagi satu, perlu diingatkan juga semasa menjawab salam,
saya dengar ramai orang jawab salam dengan ucapan yang tidak tepat.

Jawab salam yang betul ialah ;

“WAALAIKUMUSSALAM”dan bukannya yang selalu saya dengar iaitu ;

“WAALAIKUMSALAM”

Apabila kita ingin berkirim salam pada orang lain, hendaklah kita berkata
“ Kirim salam, assalamualaikum pada ASHREE ye” contoh lerr…
Dan bukannya : “ Kirim salam kat ASHREE yer”
Dan jangan pula memandai-mandai tambah perkataan seperti ” Ko tolong kirim salam maut kat dia yer“.

Statement ini walaupun dalam nada bergurau, tapi ia adalah menyalahi syariat dan berdosa, walaupun sekadar gurauan!
Selain itu, janganlah kita menggantikan perkataan “Assalamualaikum” dengan “A’kum” dalam sms atau apa sekalipun melalui tulisan.

Jika perkataan “Assalamualaikum” itu panjang, maka hendaklah kita ganti dengan perkataan “As Salam” yang membawa maksud sama dengan “Assalamualaikum”.

Sesama lah kita memberitahu member-member yang selalu sangat guna shortform “A’kum” dalam sms ataupun email. Perkataan ‘A K U M‘ adalah gelaran untuk orang-orang Yahudi untuk orang-orang bukan yahudi yang bermaksud ‘BINATANG‘ dalam Bahasa Ibrani.

Ia singkatan daripada perkataan ‘Avde K okhavim U Mazzalot’ yang bermaksud ‘HAMBA-HAMBA BINATANG DAN ORANG-ORANG SESAT‘.

Jadi, mulai sekarang jika ada orang hantar shortform “A’kum“, kita ingatkan dia guna “As Salam” kerana salam ialah dari perkataan “Assalamualaikum“.

Jangan guna “Bye” kerana“Bye” adalah jarum sulit Kristian yang bermaksud “Di Bawah Naungan Pope.”

Jangan guna “A’kum” kerana“A’kum” bermaksud “Binatang” dalam bahasa Yahudi.

Jangan guna “Semekom” kerana“Semekom”bermaksud “Celaka Kamu.”

Gunakan perkataan“ As Salam” sebagai singkatan bagi“Assalammualaikum.”

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Do share this bit of information to others.

the road to sanding day

I'm bored. No, don't get me wrong. Married life is awesome, really. It's the part when he leaves for work and I'm left at home with nothing to do that is eating me out! 12 hours is a pretty long period, don't you think?

One more day and then his long leave commences. Yeay! I almost forget that we have our receptions to go to this weekend. I'm pretty sure it's going to be tiring but it's okay. We're doing this only once, so we're putting the exhaustion at the back of our heads. Plus, we have our honeymoon waiting the following week (which I obviously cannot wait!), so I can't complain can I?

Wow, I'm still very excited and psyched for this weekend. Thursday is our fitting day and I hope everything will go out well with the outfit.

So yesterday, we had our neighbours from our old place came to our house to help prepare the doorgifts. I'm so touched and moved that they willingly came all the way and offered to help. It was definitely a fun and chaotic session with all the makciks chit-chatting non-stop.

One more day to go and everything will be settled, insyaAllah.


p/s It still feels surreal!!

Aku Terima Nikahnya

Alhamdulillah, at exactly 11.34am, we were legally husband and wife. Syukur sangat-sangat. Didn't drop any tears (!). Everything went well infact, I couldn't be more happy. I'm still overwhelmed :)

Pictures by Eda

Saya dah kahwin!!! :)

in a few hours

In a few hours, saya akan bernikah (!!!!!!)

Doakan segalanya akan berjalan baik dan lancar :)

Macam tak percaya!

Thanks Kak Feeda for the cake :)

when everything seems surreal

One more day. Why is it so hard to believe? It never occured to me that my life is really about to change come Saturday in ways that I can never imagine (or expected). This whole week, I've experienced a whirlwind of emotions which are quite difficult to comprehend, really.

Not that I didn't see it coming but I've written before that I appear very calm to many people. I was surprised myself at how cool I am taking this marriage thingy and the fact that I never once had a second thought (!). I mean, it's big right? Now that it's nearer (so near I can almost envision what's going to happen), the beating of the heart seems to grow faster that it scares me sometimes.

Getting married is a big thing. I'm building a new home with a person that I personally chose, the one I vowed to spend the rest of my life with and come what may, we'll still be together through thick and thin. We've had the most wonderful 8 years together and we will embark on a new beautiful journey in a matter of hours. Hours! If that's not overwhelming enough.

I'm praying, and hoping and wishing that everything (I mean everything from the majlis, to the akad, my outfit, the make-up, the food, the weather, the hantarans, the tok kadi) will turn out absolutely okay. And if ever I cry that day, let it be tears of joy and contentment. Not simply because I am (going to be) a legal wife to him, but also because He answers my prayers.

Please pray for us, friends, that everything will be made easy InsyaAllah. To Kay Kamal, Selamat Bernikah esok! My prayers and best wishes to you and Luqman.

a joyful weekend

My brother is, alhamdulillah, back for good. We fetched him at the airport on Saturday night. Now that the family is complete, everything is starting to fall into place.

The next day (Sunday), my homies and I went for our breakfast at the infamous Nasi Lemak Longkang in Taman Sri Andalas. I know, what's with the name right? The stall is actually built over a ditch hence the name. It is also known as Nasi Lemak Haji Mail - the owner, who happens to be a friend of my dad's. However, outsiders or some people do not know the name, so they always refer to it as "gerai yang kat longkang tu eh?" Hehe Despite it's stinky name, the food there are all very very delicious. Besides nasi lemak, they have lontong, mi/mihun soup, soto, and curry mee. This stall was once featured in Warung Kita.

Then at 12.30pm, Rizal and myself made our way to my classmate's wedding in UKM, Bangi. Wan Nadiah and I were classmates back in TKC and we were deskmate once. We reached the wedding hall at around 1.30pm and I was so excited to see a table full with my other classmates - some I haven't met for a long time! However, we didn't manage to get our picture taken wth the bride and groom :( They were busy and we had to rush. I had a great time catching up with friends and reminiscing on the good old days :)

Upon arrival

We shifted to Amie's table before all of us decided to leave at the same time

The 'bakal pengantins' :)

Anyhow, congratulations Wanea and Talhah! May you have a blessed and beautiful marriage InsyaAllah :)

So, it's just a matter of days now :)

can hardly wait

A colleague said to me a few days ago that I am extremely calm for someone who will be getting married in approximately 10 days. I think I have to agree on that. I mean, I don't exactly have to go crazy looking all worried do I?

Despite the jitters I've been having once in a while, I'm all set. You see, I don't go round telling people whatever that's bothering me or anything related to the wedding preparation. In fact, some of my friends are pretty much in the dark of what's going to happen next week. I'm not being secretive, it's just that some things you don't need to disclose to others. I tell when being asked and I inform if I feel the need to do so.

Because I have my family support my back, I can say that the preparation has been truly a family affair. So far, I'm not feeling at all stressed out throughout my preparation, alhamdulillah. He has made it easy for all of us and I cannot be more happy.

I can only hope for the best and anticipate the day patiently. I have envisioned everything since day 1, and to have it set just the way I wanted would be absolutely perfect. InsyaAllah.

Anyway, I received our first wedding gift today! It was from my dad's colleague. Well, technically it's the second after my dad's gift hehe Anyhow, thanks Uncle Yip and wife!

Last day of school tomorrow! (Although I'm silently cursing. Why do we have to come back after the 2 days of holiday again? Urrghh!)