A Second Chance

I toiled for days, wondering the starting point to my story/entry.It was tough on me.Where would I begin? It was a difficult and emotional path for me, walking down memory lane and pushing forth as I was stepping on hot coals all the way.

Not many knew that two months ago,on my way home from work, I experienced one of the most terrifying moments of my life with my second daughter, Adeena. One second we were happily chit chatting, and the next thing I remember, I swerved to the right and the  we were upside down rolling inside the flipped car, which landed 90 degrees on the opposite lane.

I really felt that both of us were going to die. Only that, we didn't. Judging from how everything happened and the fact that both of us cheated death with only minor injuries, I have no one to turn to but only Him. 

Every moment changes us. The accident was totally unexpected, really, and the shock and trauma of it was astounding. I remember thinking very clearly; I understood everything going on, but I was hyperventilating with my left hand stretching out to grasp Adeena with my mouth constantly saying, "Allah! Allah! Allah!" I will forever remember the cries that came from Adeena and the way she cried my name.

As terrifying as that moment was, I will forever remember the great kindnesses of the helpers. I don’t know who called the police, but I am so very grateful to them. The police, the countless good samaritans who helped and be in authority was greatly reassuring. I never caught the name of the lady who were really kind to look after Adeena by the roadside and the one who sent us home, but the lady was so caring and I hope that I could see her again to thank her. One man helped me to settle issues regarding my insurance and another helped to get my husband's car off of the road. Everything was truly eased despite everything and I pray that they all know how thankful I am for them during my husband's absence. 

**In the time of the happening, my husband just took off on a plane for work and you could imagined how he felt when he was informed of what happened to us a few hours later**

Enjoy the time you have been given. Things can change so quickly. An instant will change your life forever. I am fortunate in the fact that I was not physically altered by my incident, but that could easily have not been the case. I could have died or lost a limb. I could have lost my daughter and vice versa. And I remember teasing my daughter and said "I refused to talk to you" because she didn't want to return the teddy she took back from her school before everything happened in a split second after that. Imagine if those were my last words to her. 

I still shudder thinking about it. A thud or a simple bump made me jump out of my skin. I never take that route again. 

I know He is trying to talk to me. Everything that happened was truly a wake-up call. He wants to rectify my mistakes and make me see clearer of life after having my eyes washed in tears many times. True, the car is lost, but I know I have gained a greater strength and faith; and I believe a greater gift awaits. 

not as bad, but truly shaken

They say the road ahead is treacherous. Yes, it is.

I was caught in a misfortune today when I met with a car accident on my way to school. I'm still in shocked even as I'm typing away at this point of time. My car wasn't badly damaged as compared to the car which I crashed into, but I was truly shaken. My dear Kia suffered a few scratches, crashed plat number, and a dented front bonet which isn't a sight to behold -- at least to my eyes.

I had the car's plat number replaced already

How it happened? Well, everything happened pretty fast actually. I was turning into the junction when I realised the car in front of me wasn't moving and it was too late for me to make an emergency brake. And even if I pressed the emergency brake till I could feel the floor, it wouldn't change a thing. I would still hit the bumper--perhaps without as much force.

I felt sorry for the lady because her bumper was in a pretty bad shape. And because her car was in the middle, she got a fair hit on both front and back. Yikes! She was as badly shaken as I was but she was really nice. We didn't have any heated arguments and she was calmer than me. We then decided to make a police report and that's when we parted. But before we did, she asked, "Are you a teacher?" and I followed her eyes to my name tag. I smiled and said yes. I totally forgot about that. And we had a short friendly conversation.

At the police station, the officers were all very nice and helpful. Again, when they knew I was a teacher, they even became nicer and started to call me 'cikgu'. It gave me that warmth feeling. The funny part came when the Sargent incharge said "Mintak maaf ye cikgu. Saya terpaksa keluarkan saman walaupun bukan cikgu yang salah sebab cikgu langgar dari belakang. Mintak maaf ye". Oh well. What can I say? I was well-served and I am satisfied with the service. It calmed me a bit.

Isn't that a shot to the heart?

I was supposed to send four of my students for their Kem Latihan Pusat KPA today but after what happened, I had to ask that favor from another teacher. And of course, news travelled fast. I received many calls from concerned colleagues asking how I was doing. I was truly touched. I never thought they would even call, seriously. Thanks anyway. And if it wasn't for my parents, I wouldn't know how to deal with it. Thanks ma, ayah.

And my sister definitely will remember this day just as much as I will. It's her 17th birthday today. To Farah, Happy 17th birthday!! When we were young, you were 'just my sister'. But as we grow, I now truly understand what having you as a sister meant. Thank you for being a wonderful sister, who more often than not knocked some senses into my head, and thank you for the quarrels, the laughters and the cryings together. Hope you had a wonderful day and the brief blowing off candles session early this morning :) Love you lots!


And I hope I will be fine when tomorrow comes.